I wish I could be heartless. I’m tired of being reminded of the pain everyday of my life. Im tired of feeling confused. I know everyone gets heartbroken, I just wish we didn’t have to. I want to go on with my life with no emotions. But silly me loves to love and feel loved in return. I fall so easily, I deny it but it’s true. I always fall for the wrong guy. Blah. FML.
I’m at the point where all I wanna do is sleep and cry. That’s all I do now, I know you don’t care but I love you. After all the bullshit you gave me, I still love you. What’s wrong with me. Why can’t I learn from my mistakes.
Why.
Why does every guy I date have to cheat on me. Whats wrong with me? I make sure you feel special, I tell you I love you everyday, I text you goodnight no matter what even if we had a big fight, I make time for you. Why did you do this to me? Why did you make me believe you were different & the we’d last and then do this to me…. Why couldn’t you just be happy with me? What did I do… Why is it always me crying myself to sleep with a broken heart… Why.
I’m worn out, I’m done. I’ve tried. I’ve done everything I can to fix us but you don’t appreciate it or even try to help. You turned out to be like every other guy. I don’t deserve this.
Sometimes, I feel like ignoring your texts like you do mine. I don’t feel like telling you I love you back just to teach you a lesson, to show you how it’d be without me. I feel like ending it, to show you what you’ve lost and taken for granted. But unlike you, I love you too much to ever think about hurting you. I love your too much to ignore your texts because I love talking to you. I love you too much that I can’t hold back from telling you I love you. Unlike you, when I say I love you.. I mean it.
You make me hate my life. That’s not what a dad is suppose to do. A father is suppose to treat his daughter like a princess, not call her a “slut” or a “stuck up bitch”. What kind of father does that? People tell me “be happy you have a father, some kids grow up with out one” how am I suppose to be happy when he treats his family like shit. You make me hate my life, I wish you’d leave.
